But does that mean I don't have struggles or complaints? Absolutely not. I just choose not to voice them here on my blog. That being said, I don't want any of you who read my blog to just assume that I always have it together because that is far from the truth. For example...on Friday when I posted about Camden sleeping through the night. Sure, he has been sleeping great but that doesn't mean he hasn't ever woke up in the middle of the night and I'm sitting there (insert wide eyed emoticon here) thinking, "WTH?! Why is he up? Did he not get enough to eat?" Those things happen to me, too. All the time!
On any given day I probably worry about oh, 23+ things if I were to count every little one in my head and total them up (but I don't do that because if I did it would probably drive me crazy...or at least to the closest beach with a Corona in my hand.))
I struggle with:
+finding enough time in the day-when can I fit in a workout? what's for dinner? how can I have dinner ready if Cam wants to play and needs a bath? wait, I need to shower!
+mom guilt-due to sometimes missing the "old days" when it was just me and Billy and we could just pick up and go wherever, whenever we wanted
+worrying about Cam when he sleeps
+wanting to lose these last pesky pounds attached to my stomach and waist but realllyyy wanting that donut sitting in the office break room
+worrying about Cam when he is awake (when you're a new parent, you worry about almost everything)
+feeling unorganized-that our room needs cleaned but laundry also needs to be done. oh, and remember those bills that need to be paid?
+questioning pretty much every single parenting decision
Phew. My point is that the struggle is very real for all of us. No one has a perfect life and if they act like they do, they are lying!
Just when you think you are one step ahead, something else comes your way. And similarly, it's just like what I'm learning (ahem-still trying to learn/deal with) now that I have a little one...once you think you have one thing figured out, it all changes again! But at the end of every single day, when I kiss that sweet boy on the forehead goodnight I'm reminded just how worth it it all is. Motherhood has been the best and hardest journey of my life. I would never want to go back to life before Cam!