Thirteen years ago today my Mom passed away peacefully at our home. Thirteen years without my Mom and missing her everyday since. It's hard to believe it's been that long, or has it been longer? That's what it's like losing a loved one..some days it feels like yesterday and other days it feels much, much longer than that. My Mom IS someone that you'd miss everyday and I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss her every single day (heck, she was the inspiration for me starting this blog in the first place)...her personality was contagious. Always positive. Always smiling.
In a world full of inconstant, the one constant that always stay true for me is that she doesn't have to physically be here to make an impact on my life and for me to feel her presence. The truth is, I feel her around me all the time and I make decisions daily with her in mind. If you would've asked me that ten years ago if I thought that was possible I would've looked at you like you had four heads and you were just saying that to make me feel better, but now I know it's true.
This weekend I was gifted more amazing letters (over 10 pages!) that my Mom wrote for me that my Dad had found, and it was just what I needed to comfort me during this time. Me and Billy spent Friday night after we left my parents house going through them and reading them all. She actually wrote these ones before she got diagnosed with cancer, so the fact that she did write them (and in so much detail) is truly something that I view as a miracle. They are priceless and I love seeing her personality shine through in them!
I remember writing this post in September, and I stand by it still today. If you've lost a loved one, maybe it will provide you with some comfort.
Missing you everyday, Mom!
Sept 10, 1952-June 2, 2001