6.02.2014

Thirteen Years Later


Thirteen years ago today my Mom passed away peacefully at our home. Thirteen years without my Mom and missing her everyday since. It's hard to believe it's been that long, or has it been longer? That's what it's like losing a loved one..some days it feels like yesterday and other days it feels much, much longer than that. My Mom IS someone that you'd miss everyday and I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss her every single day (heck, she was the inspiration for me starting this blog in the first place)...her personality was contagious. Always positive. Always smiling.

In a world full of inconstant, the one constant that always stay true for me is that she doesn't have to physically be here to make an impact on my life and for me to feel her presence. The truth is, I feel her around me all the time and I make decisions daily with her in mind. If you would've asked me that ten years ago if I thought that was possible I would've looked at you like you had four heads and you were just saying that to make me feel better, but now I know it's true. 

This weekend I was gifted more amazing letters (over 10 pages!) that my Mom wrote for me that my Dad had found, and it was just what I needed to comfort me during this time. Me and Billy spent Friday night after we left my parents house going through them and reading them all. She actually wrote these ones before she got diagnosed with cancer, so the fact that she did write them (and in so much detail) is truly something that I view as a miracle. They are priceless and I love seeing her personality shine through in them!

I remember writing this post in September, and I stand by it still today. If you've lost a loved one, maybe it will provide you with some comfort. 

Missing you everyday, Mom! 
Sept 10, 1952-June 2, 2001


21 comments

  1. Katie, I'm sure your mom is so proud of the amazing, kind, beautiful woman you've become! Sending lots of love and a big fat hug your way today.

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  2. Sending you lots of love and hugs today sweet friend! I know your mom is smiling down from Heaven at what a wonderful person you’ve become. :) xx

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  3. Thinking of you today and sending lots of love. I can't imagine that it ever gets easier.

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  4. I am so so sorry. I am sending you lots of love. I absolutely know how you feel, I feel my mom's presence all the time. She passed away 12 years ago. I am sure our moms are watching over us all the time.

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  5. Thinking of you on this hard day. This year will be 4 years without my dad (due to cancer as well) in October. I know your mom is so proud of the woman you are! I hope today brings you peace and happiness love. Have a great week! <3

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  6. Oh sweet friend, that is so special that your dad gave you those letters! I know she is looking down on you and is so proud of the beautiful lady you've become. I know what it's like to lose a mom to cancer and you're right, it doesn't get easier and we miss them every day. Hold tight to those memories. Hugs to you and your dad!

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  7. Thinking of you today! I am sure your Mom is so PROUD of you and everything you do everyday!!! I hope you found comfort in those letters and can cherish them especially today. xoxo

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  8. You have such an amazing mom to leave you all the notes she did. Love you babe

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  9. Thinking of you today lady. What an amazing mom to leave behind so many notes and memories for you. No doubt she is watching over you each and every day <3

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  10. I'm so sorry for you loss. Even though it was a while ago, the pain never really goes away. I hope you find comfort, in this day and every day, that she is watching over you. You are so loved!

    Allison over at Allison's Eye

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  11. So awesome that your father found even more letters for you. Your mom left you an amazing gift :)

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  12. Big hugs to you sweet Katie!! You are such an amazing lady and even though I didn't know her, I know your mama would be incredibly proud of you!

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  13. Sending you love and strength today sweet friend. Your mama is so proud of you and watching down and smiling over you x

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  14. OMG! HOW AWESOME!!!! I would love finding letters from my mom - so sweet! Treasure those girl. I'm sending you hugs through the interwebs today. Losing moms is not fun!

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  15. That is so awesome that you have gotten more letters from your mom! That has to be the absolute sweetest thing! Tomorrow will be 8 years that my mom has been gone & I can agree that at times it feels like it was yesterday & other times it feels like forever ago. I don't like either of the feelings but, you're right... you're mom is there every step of the way with you!! Sending big hugs your way today!!

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  16. Wow! The quote at the beginning of this post got to me.. as well as so many of your words written. It's crazy that my son passed away nine years ago because sometimes it feels like a lifetime since I held him and then sometimes I wake up and I feel like it was just days ago and the grief blinds me and just takes over. I love the way you are able to look at things-- your outlook is so wise. Thanks for sharing this. And I'm so glad you received such precious gifts! XO

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  17. Thinking of you today!! I am sure getting those letters at this exact time was such an unexpected blessing. It is so refreshing to see that you try to stay as positive as possible through such hard times, you are an inspiration :)

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  18. This was a beautiful post. I lost my Mom to cancer 7 years ago and I miss her so much, wish I could hear her voice one more time but God has given me an unbelievable peace that gets me through because I never thought I would be able to survive without her! You are continuing your Mom's legacy as I am with my Mom! And that is so awesome that you found those letters! XOXO Suzanne
    http://myrealpretendblog.wordpress.com/


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  19. Your mother & I share a birthday!
    I am glad you were able to read those letters so many years after her passing..
    Just remember she is & forever will be with you always :)

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  20. I wish I could just reach out and hug you! You're such an amazing person and friend. I know your mom is SOOOO proud of the woman you've become. What a blessing her letters are!

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